Dazed and Confused

Everything fucking hurts and I'm sitting here bawling and Moxie is looking at me so confused and apologetic but it's not her fault I'm hurting - she doesn't know how fragile I am.

And I'm so confused and brain-fogged that I keep not being able to remember when I last fed her and I have the sneaking suspicion that the reason she has hiccups and is retching right now is because she's tricked me into giving her two dinners.

And I keep having odd chest problems and not being able to breathe properly and making such loud fricking noises trying to suck in breath that Moxie for some reason thinks I'm playing a game with her and starts trying to attack me - WHILST I CAN'T BREATHE.

And my POTS is still flaring and I keep nearly fainting with all of the jumping up and leaning down to grab the Moxie when she's doing something she shouldn't.

Once again, I CANNOT FUCKING DEAL WITH THIS ALONE.

EDIT: Oh, and I still haven't written my Screamprompt and I'm running severely low on time but Moxie can't leave me the fuck alone long enough for me to do anything about it. I normally hide upstairs for hours when I want to write but I don't want to leave Moxie alone for that long.