BOYS!

Feeling kind of excluded and left out of things. Rambo and The Music Man are spending all their time playing video games together and I'm stuck up here lying in bed because being out of bed just hurts too much. I'm so bored and lonely. I know, there's a whole internet full of lovely people to talk to*, but that won't cure my loneliness, that's not what I want. I don't want to talk; I'm not a very talkative person. I just want to sit with Rambo and cuddle for a bit, that's all.

I'd tell him this, but the last time I did that he told TMM and they just sat there laughing at me being girly. Rambo has no goddamned tact.

I'm sure there were other things that I wanted to say, but my memory really is that shitty that I can't really remember most of today.

Oh, wait, I know. Rent was due today. We can't really pay it. Rambo managed to lose £300 worth of cheques after I nagged him for a week straight to go down to the bank and cash them. Fairly certain they're in the house somewhere but been looking for a week and can't find them. I'm sure if he'd just clean the fucking house they'd turn up but even with £300 riding on it he'd rather sit around playing video games and going 'Eh, it's not that bad. We don't need the money. We pay rent late all the time!'

I've tried cleaning myself but I don't get very far before I need to collapse and then by the time I've got the energy to try again it's worse than when I started.

Again, who the fuck thought it was a good idea to live with two boys?

...I brought this on myself. I know it. But on the one hand, it's sort of a good thing - if I was living with girls, they'd shout at me for being untidy, rather than the other way around.





*Yes, I mean you guys. You're all lovely. <3