In the middle of a POTS flare, so having difficulty with being upright and difficulty with lightheadedness and brain fog and headaches and all that crap. Can't really think straight. Feeling like crap for getting a puppy when I can't look after her during flares like this. Feeling like the most horrible person in the world. Then Rambo makes me feel even worse for daring to ask him for help with things and to request a clean fork to eat my dinner with, and then my sister starts on at me about 'final utility bills' from when she was living here that the company wants her to pay before she can close her account and pass it over to us. We already gave her rent for the month those bills are from and our rent included utilities, but she's insisting we should help her with these bills. I don't have a spare £80 to give her and I can't think straight enough to deal with finances anyway.
I think I need some sleep. Maybe some ice-cream first to get my temperature down a bit, that'll help the POTS.
This crying won't help my headaches though. I should really quit being such a fucking crybaby, it's getting ridiculous. I honestly can't remember the last time I had a day where I didn't cry and it's always for such stupid idiotic reasons.
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